First look at my phone baby Galaxy S3 Marble White :) Why white?? It's a girl's thing yah know.  I lost my iphone 5 last month so I had to buy a new phone :( . It's a lot cheaper than the iphone 5 but specswise, the phone is awesome! I love the elegant metallic curve round the corner. The S3 is very very light at an unbelievable weight of 133 grams. The camera is very impressive in good lighting conditions .

I've spent my whole Sunday backreading my previous posts. And Oh my God, I have found so many fractured grammars T.T. Sorry. I need a lot of proofreading before hitting the publish button next time..

Anyway, I'm on tumblr now. Been thinking of having a tumblr account since January coz I think I'm the only one who is not into tumblr. So yeah, I'm quite a tumblr person now.  So please do follow me on Tumblr. I will definitely follow back without fail.

http://maimaiedres.tumblr.com/

Sometimes, I do feel like I've got the wrong way. There are some nights that  I wonder  if this was the correct career decision after all. After passing the dreaded board exams I feel like becoming a CPA wasn't really meant for me. I don't like being the office doing debits and credits or worse auditing. Academically, I am good but when it comes to technical application, I know for sure I will suck.   If I could only change the past. But I have faith in the Supreme Being.  Sooner or later, I'll end up exactly where I'm supposed to be, doing something I absolutely, positively love. It could be something not related to accounting. InshaAllah! 

To cast my fears and regrets aside, I have been keeping myself busy reading books these past few weeks. They are my source of relief, the only ones I turn to when I'm depressed and alone!  Books will teach you a great deal about life ( of course it will depend on the kind of books you're into). Above all, books in some ways help solve the mystery of life , so they act as your guide,  true friend and companion. 

So far I am done with High Druid of Shannara Tanequil. And currently reading Part 3 Straken of the book on my iphone's kindle. The trilogy is a must read if you are into fantasy .The book's fast faced and you wouldn't feel bored while reading it. Can't wait to finish the book so bye for now :) Thanks for reading ^.^

Quite obviously, I have a new blog theme!  I have made a few tweaks to the original theme. I had to change the blogtitle's font and as well as with the sidebar's . The scrollbar's new and I have installed a tagboard on my the sidebar ^_^ . I have still  loads of things to do with the layout. So far, I am loooooooooooooving my new layout. ^_^ It's pretty unusual that I'm feeling  extra happy today which used to be a rarity for my very pessimist/realist self .

Out of the blue, I just want to share my to do list today.  Haha.

• Finish the Shannara Book I'm reading. I have still have piles of books waiting to be read.

• Watch Cloud Atlas and Arrow Series

• Work on my blog layout.

• Sleep. Siesta Time.

• Cook our Mirienda. Breadroll. 

I can't wait for June to come. Hmmm. I am very excited  and nervous at the same time for my first job as a Certified Public Accountant :) . Weeeee. It means that I am one step away from my dream of buying my own house :) haha. Haha. My so unplanned flight to Manila last month really paid off though I do not feel like I did particularly well in one of the interviews I attended to. I was a total nervous wreck. Still, Alhamdullilah I got accepted. I thank God the second after the head of the Human Recource Dep shook my hands and said "Congratulations in advance" .

The way I am feeling right now is one of those thousand moments I feel sorely confused and lost. But I've never been this confused in my entire 22 years. I feel like I am stuck in a gutter losing sight of my ambitions and purpose in life. I have this horrid feeling that I am no difference to the dead. Physical death will make no difference. I am nobody worth their attention. I hate life. Life's UNFAIR. Why does it have to be so hard for me??!

So I have been doing a lot of thinking  the past three months of being idle and useless. I am confounded by choices but the simple task of choosing which one seems to be a very difficult task for me. Even If I could some of these days, I don't know where and when is the best way to start . I am at this point in my life where I don't know what to do with my far-from-perfect-life. 

Hahaha! Found this draft I wrote last week.XD Reading those few lines above makes me realize that I am suffering last week from some kind of mild psychotic breakdown that runs in the family.  Allhamdullilah, I prolly think I have recovered over the worst of it now :) 

I'm not completely fond of lip products, infact I don't use any lip products (except lip balms) at all. But  recently,  I found the need to use  lippies for my upcoming job interviews in Manila this February. I have natural VERY dark lips (very proud of it) so I need to get it covered to look and feel more put-together and professional. I have one round pumpkin NYX lipstick  but I think I would typically look my best in in a matte kind of lipsticks (or Am I just being delusional?). So anyway, I bought matte lip creams in Antwerp and Addis Ababa.  I was able to get these two shades for a cheaper price at Php 280 each.

I really like the matte finish on both, it's very opaque and glides smoothly on your lips. They are a true matte and are amazingly long lasting for me. They really stay put. Matte formula are typically very drying but these two aren't entirely drying at all. I think that's because I don't apply it bare through,I make it sure my lips are exfoliated and conditioned beforehand. Lip balms will definitely do the the trick. And best of all, I love the very sweet smell.

Addis Ababa Review.

Waahh. I'm fuming with anger! An annoying guy I knew way back in highschool somehow got a hold of my number and started texting me every damn minute of his life. Not only that, he started to chat me on facebook. I'm not being rude but it's just that I don't entertain guys who would like to fling with me. Waaah he's desperate moves was sky high. Maybe he's looking for someone to marry, that wouldn't be obviously me, not in a gazillion years! I will never marry a man who doesn't know his limits. He crossed the lines na. Gosh, I'm not selling my heart! and I'm not darn cheap. So please go away, I don't want you in my life!  

O ALLAH (swt)

I seek forgiveness for every sin, I committed, about which, of course, You know inside and out, from the beginning to the end of my life, whether committed deliberately or intentionally, few or many, abstruse or manifest, old or new, secretly carried out or openly done; and for whatever wrong I have done I turn repentant unto You and beseech You to bless Muhammad and the children of Muhammad and forgive all my unjust acts I did to wrong the people (because they have rights which I have to recognize and fulfill) but You have full authority to forgive those wrongdoings whenever and howsoever You wish, O the most merciful.

ALLAHUMMA INNEE ASTAGHFIRUKA LIKULLI D'AMBIN JARAA BIHEE I'LMUKA FIYYA WA A'LAYYA ILAA AAKHIRI U'MREE BI-JAMEE-I D'UNOOBEE LI-AWWALIHAA WA AAKHIRIHAA WA A'MADIHAA WA KHAT A-IHAA WA QALEELIHAA WA KATHEERIHAA WA DAQEEQIHAA WA JALEELIHAA WA QADEEMIHAA WA H'ADEETHIHAA WA SIRRIHAA WA A'LAANIYATIHAA WA JAMEE-I MAA ANAA MUD'NIBUHOO WA ATOOBU ILAYKA WA AS-ALUKA AN TUS'ALLIYA A'LAA MUH'AMMADIN WA AALI MUH'AMMADIN WA AN TAGHFIRA LEE JAMEE-A, MAA AH'S'AYTU MIM MAZ'AALIMIL I'BAADI QIBALEE FA-INNA LI-IBAADIKA A'LAYYA H'UQOOQAN WA ANAA MURTAHINUM BIHAA TAGHFIRUHAA KAYFA SHI-TA WA ANNAA SHIA-TA YAA ARH'AMAR RAAH'IMEEN

To start off the new year, I would like to share this song. I don't know but this song hits me hard. It's a song I can identify myself with. I love how strong and soothing this song is with that sense of melancholy. 

To my crush "guy", this song goes out to you :P I will love you until lemons turn sweet.  ♥ Hindi mu lang alam. haha

and let me share with you my new wallet in a shocking pink color. Got it 10% off the price!

I'm so happy the world didn't end last Dec 20! Haha. I'm still alive and kicking :D  I had fun going out with my high school friends on the 20th ! Yes, we were brave enough to celebrate on the day the world was supposed to end.haha . Anyway, it was great to see them and it was like all old days came back. They are my friends who would stick around for a life time although we get to see each other occasionally. I can't forget these guys that got me through all the thick and thin spots of my high school life. Whenever I get to see them,  I  always get a glimpse of how enjoying my high school was. They are the ones who can make me laugh to death.

I enjoyed catching up with the latest chikas and updates in our lives as well as what has been happening to our other highschool batchmates in short chitchats. I love the way how we pass around jokes and call each other silly names we used to do way back in highschool.

Seeing you guys was like a walk down memory lane. It brings back good memories and relives the old times. You guys rock!  Hope you guys enjoy what remains of 2012!

CPA Review School of the Philippines (CPAR) the best

Helloooooooooooo! I'm back with my name three acronym-letters longer. Nope, it's not an ATTY but it's CPA. Yes, I am now a Certified Public Accountant. 

My almost 5-month review at Manila was not easy at all. I had to summon up courage to study away from home and had to learn that alongside the word independence should be the word responsibility. 

The Board Exam

After Business Law and Taxation which happened to be my last subject, I felt that I am more close to passing than failing though I felt incredibly upset for taking the exams too lightly. Although I caught the flu on the last day of the exam but still my confidence was sky-high and failing was even out of my options.  But all these high hopes had changed the day  the results came. I became so paranoid not because I didn't fare well in the test but because I made more than five erasures . Yes! I have made more than 5 erasures ( 6 to be exact) out of stupidity and carelessness.  I really cannot resist letting the numbers kicked out because of such stupidity. They say an erasure is a mortal sin in the board exam and it's a big no no. Nonetheless, I took the risk. So I guess that explains why I only got 86% in that particular subject.

I have experienced what every CPA candidates goes through. Unexplainable nervousness, butterflies in the stomach and the list goes on. I could still remember the high anxiety I felt while waiting for the results. I am sure that time that every CPA candidate was filled with prayers and hopes of passing this dreaded exam and I am not an exception to that. Negative thoughts came pouring in. 

That precise moment when you scroll your mouse down to see your name in the roster of new CPAs was an extremely extremely nerve-wracking experience. It felt like my heart is going to burst out of my chest and I  found the world blurry for a moment . I nearly collapsed but it was the best feeling in the world. I could still remember how I screamed and cried out of joy. I was at cyberzone in SM Manila that time. Everyone was giving me this heartless stare and their soo not comfortable look. But hey, for one moment in my life, just one moment, I OWN THE WORLD :)  I just couldn't believe myself shouting and crying and not caring about what people would say about me. Mura kog nadaog sa loto ( I feel like I just won the lottery) haha. 

My mom, dad and relatives were very proud of me that they have to hang my tarpaulins in every tree (exaggeration)  around my hometown with my huge pixelized face. 

Passing the CPA board exam is one hell of a great start! I'd become someone great someday! To God be the glory! Qatar here I come :) InshaAllah!