Sometimes, I do feel like I've got the wrong way. There are some nights that  I wonder  if this was the correct career decision after all. After passing the dreaded board exams I feel like becoming a CPA wasn't really meant for me. I don't like being the office doing debits and credits or worse auditing. Academically, I am good but when it comes to technical application, I know for sure I will suck.   If I could only change the past. But I have faith in the Supreme Being.  Sooner or later, I'll end up exactly where I'm supposed to be, doing something I absolutely, positively love. It could be something not related to accounting. InshaAllah! 

To cast my fears and regrets aside, I have been keeping myself busy reading books these past few weeks. They are my source of relief, the only ones I turn to when I'm depressed and alone!  Books will teach you a great deal about life ( of course it will depend on the kind of books you're into). Above all, books in some ways help solve the mystery of life , so they act as your guide,  true friend and companion. 

So far I am done with High Druid of Shannara Tanequil. And currently reading Part 3 Straken of the book on my iphone's kindle. The trilogy is a must read if you are into fantasy .The book's fast faced and you wouldn't feel bored while reading it. Can't wait to finish the book so bye for now :) Thanks for reading ^.^

The way I am feeling right now is one of those thousand moments I feel sorely confused and lost. But I've never been this confused in my entire 22 years. I feel like I am stuck in a gutter losing sight of my ambitions and purpose in life. I have this horrid feeling that I am no difference to the dead. Physical death will make no difference. I am nobody worth their attention. I hate life. Life's UNFAIR. Why does it have to be so hard for me??!

So I have been doing a lot of thinking  the past three months of being idle and useless. I am confounded by choices but the simple task of choosing which one seems to be a very difficult task for me. Even If I could some of these days, I don't know where and when is the best way to start . I am at this point in my life where I don't know what to do with my far-from-perfect-life. 

Hahaha! Found this draft I wrote last week.XD Reading those few lines above makes me realize that I am suffering last week from some kind of mild psychotic breakdown that runs in the family.  Allhamdullilah, I prolly think I have recovered over the worst of it now :) 

O ALLAH (swt)

I seek forgiveness for every sin, I committed, about which, of course, You know inside and out, from the beginning to the end of my life, whether committed deliberately or intentionally, few or many, abstruse or manifest, old or new, secretly carried out or openly done; and for whatever wrong I have done I turn repentant unto You and beseech You to bless Muhammad and the children of Muhammad and forgive all my unjust acts I did to wrong the people (because they have rights which I have to recognize and fulfill) but You have full authority to forgive those wrongdoings whenever and howsoever You wish, O the most merciful.

ALLAHUMMA INNEE ASTAGHFIRUKA LIKULLI D'AMBIN JARAA BIHEE I'LMUKA FIYYA WA A'LAYYA ILAA AAKHIRI U'MREE BI-JAMEE-I D'UNOOBEE LI-AWWALIHAA WA AAKHIRIHAA WA A'MADIHAA WA KHAT A-IHAA WA QALEELIHAA WA KATHEERIHAA WA DAQEEQIHAA WA JALEELIHAA WA QADEEMIHAA WA H'ADEETHIHAA WA SIRRIHAA WA A'LAANIYATIHAA WA JAMEE-I MAA ANAA MUD'NIBUHOO WA ATOOBU ILAYKA WA AS-ALUKA AN TUS'ALLIYA A'LAA MUH'AMMADIN WA AALI MUH'AMMADIN WA AN TAGHFIRA LEE JAMEE-A, MAA AH'S'AYTU MIM MAZ'AALIMIL I'BAADI QIBALEE FA-INNA LI-IBAADIKA A'LAYYA H'UQOOQAN WA ANAA MURTAHINUM BIHAA TAGHFIRUHAA KAYFA SHI-TA WA ANNAA SHIA-TA YAA ARH'AMAR RAAH'IMEEN

To start off the new year, I would like to share this song. I don't know but this song hits me hard. It's a song I can identify myself with. I love how strong and soothing this song is with that sense of melancholy. 

To my crush "guy", this song goes out to you :P I will love you until lemons turn sweet.  ♥ Hindi mu lang alam. haha

and let me share with you my new wallet in a shocking pink color. Got it 10% off the price!

I'm so happy the world didn't end last Dec 20! Haha. I'm still alive and kicking :D  I had fun going out with my high school friends on the 20th ! Yes, we were brave enough to celebrate on the day the world was supposed to end.haha . Anyway, it was great to see them and it was like all old days came back. They are my friends who would stick around for a life time although we get to see each other occasionally. I can't forget these guys that got me through all the thick and thin spots of my high school life. Whenever I get to see them,  I  always get a glimpse of how enjoying my high school was. They are the ones who can make me laugh to death.

I enjoyed catching up with the latest chikas and updates in our lives as well as what has been happening to our other highschool batchmates in short chitchats. I love the way how we pass around jokes and call each other silly names we used to do way back in highschool.

Seeing you guys was like a walk down memory lane. It brings back good memories and relives the old times. You guys rock!  Hope you guys enjoy what remains of 2012!

CPA Review School of the Philippines (CPAR) the best

Helloooooooooooo! I'm back with my name three acronym-letters longer. Nope, it's not an ATTY but it's CPA. Yes, I am now a Certified Public Accountant. 

My almost 5-month review at Manila was not easy at all. I had to summon up courage to study away from home and had to learn that alongside the word independence should be the word responsibility. 

The Board Exam

After Business Law and Taxation which happened to be my last subject, I felt that I am more close to passing than failing though I felt incredibly upset for taking the exams too lightly. Although I caught the flu on the last day of the exam but still my confidence was sky-high and failing was even out of my options.  But all these high hopes had changed the day  the results came. I became so paranoid not because I didn't fare well in the test but because I made more than five erasures . Yes! I have made more than 5 erasures ( 6 to be exact) out of stupidity and carelessness.  I really cannot resist letting the numbers kicked out because of such stupidity. They say an erasure is a mortal sin in the board exam and it's a big no no. Nonetheless, I took the risk. So I guess that explains why I only got 86% in that particular subject.

I have experienced what every CPA candidates goes through. Unexplainable nervousness, butterflies in the stomach and the list goes on. I could still remember the high anxiety I felt while waiting for the results. I am sure that time that every CPA candidate was filled with prayers and hopes of passing this dreaded exam and I am not an exception to that. Negative thoughts came pouring in. 

That precise moment when you scroll your mouse down to see your name in the roster of new CPAs was an extremely extremely nerve-wracking experience. It felt like my heart is going to burst out of my chest and I  found the world blurry for a moment . I nearly collapsed but it was the best feeling in the world. I could still remember how I screamed and cried out of joy. I was at cyberzone in SM Manila that time. Everyone was giving me this heartless stare and their soo not comfortable look. But hey, for one moment in my life, just one moment, I OWN THE WORLD :)  I just couldn't believe myself shouting and crying and not caring about what people would say about me. Mura kog nadaog sa loto ( I feel like I just won the lottery) haha. 

My mom, dad and relatives were very proud of me that they have to hang my tarpaulins in every tree (exaggeration)  around my hometown with my huge pixelized face. 

Passing the CPA board exam is one hell of a great start! I'd become someone great someday! To God be the glory! Qatar here I come :) InshaAllah!

I'm torn between two answers. Should I be honest or just tell the plain truth? If you were in my shoes. What would you tell a friend who would often ask you "Does this outfit make me look fat?" In my case, I would always say yes which is usually ( but not always ) the truth. I just don't wana hurt her feelings. Would you care for some bluntness?

#Stupidme

Hi guys!
Posting has been light around here because I am enjoying my summer and at the same time preparing myself for the upcoming board exam review in CPAR Manila.

For  an aspiring CPA ,  months from now is the time when stress levels hit the roof.  I am conditioning myself physically, mentally and emotionally, I think this aspect of preparing is crucially important and rarely treated with the seriousness it deserves. I need to start scanning my books . I need to recall  everything ..Waah. Panic is the word. I can't review my lessons from first year to fifth year in a month. Lots of things went crashing into my head. I need to study but I have so little time.  It's something I should be very very serious about. I WILL PASS THE  CPA BOARD EXAMS.   So Bye bye for now! 

How would you feel if you've been given a grade 3 in a six units subject,  when you deserve a better grade?? It seriously pulled down my CGPA. I have good grounds to believe that my professor graded me unfairly, out of mistake. My classmates who have grades lower than me, got a grade of 2 :( I have nothing against my professor coz I know  humans are subject to error.  I appealed my grade to my professor, and she eventually realized her mistake. But she said the grades are already locked. She could no longer change mine. How sad. Moving on with a heavy heart :)

For those who wanna watch the Hunger Games movie online for free, here's the link http://www.movie2k.to/The-Hunger-Games-watch-movie-1258845.html. I won't spoil the movie but I won't be giving anything away to say that the movie fell a bit short of my expectations. Anyways. Enjoy! 

Howdy. I apologize for not being able to update my blog for months. I have been really busy with school lately and I have a Feasibility Study to catch up on, and with the exams just around the corner and class reports here and there I haven't had too much time to blog.  

So today, I am going to share my latest fab for the month of January :D My 13 inch Pink Cambridge Satchel bag. :D Apparently, this is a knock off fofthe outrageously expensive Cambridge Bags which are prized at P 10,000 +  I am not really a bag person but when I saw this one online, I instantly fell in love with it that I had to ask my cousin to send me a locally made one.  :D  It features an extended front pocket and  long strap,  and it comes in a very cute pink shade :D I was able to put all my school stuff in it that includes my thick Applied Auditing Book by Cabrera, wallet, pouch, pencil case, my qwerty nokia phone, my eyeglasses, two notebooks.  Perfect bag for my school stuff! Who would say not to this locally made satchel ?



To welcome the New Year, i just had my hair cut  :D

So I bought myself an en expensive umbrella only to be lost after a week of using it. Grrrr.  At Php 400,  this umbrella is not of course the most expensive umbrella in the world but unfortunately it's a bit expensive already by my standards.  I cried my heart out when I realize I lost it in a fastfood chain. Not because of the expensive umbrella alone but more because of the fact that I did it again!! I cant count anymore the number of umbrellas I have lost in my life. It's so disappointing to know it happens all the time. I felt bad and was on a foul mood for two days.  I swear to myself that I will never spend so much money on an umbrella again just to be sure I don't lose one again . Umbrellas are made to be lost.

Last month, I got my google adsense PIN :D ayt.  It arrived in the mail when I least expect it. I have waited impatiently for a month  and tadah!..Apparently, Google sends this out  in the regular mail when your account reaches $10, and mine reached that amount after four months my application got approved. waaah.  I wonder when would be my first cash out.  Me and the postcard. Look! Can't you see ? it's posted through air mail :D straight from Mountain View, CA :D  My real name isn't maishee :P What's my real name? Try to make out what's the name written  on the mail :P

No words can describe the happiness I am feeling right now. I can already see myself dressed in our long red lobes walking the stage to receive my college diploma!  Finally, this is it! But on the other side of my self  I feel sad  because I will be leaving my dear Alma Mater, Mindanao State University -Iligan Insititute of Technology. I have lots of memories in this university that will remain in me forever. Morever, I and my classmates will be parting ways :( Deep in my heart , I know that I will miss the friendship and bonding we have made throughout the years! Today, I feel happier than sad. Haha. My efforts and struggles for the past five years in BS Accountancy really paid off! I am more thankful that I was among the 54 students who'll make it this April out of the 120 + BS Accountancy students five years ago. This thought flashed  me vividly back to my first day in college. What a day that was for me , a frustrated engineer who would have been one of those who passed this year's Chemical Engineering Board Exams had I chosen a different path! Stark realization had me in my third year in college, Accountancy  is really meant for me! Thanks to my Dad who patiently convinced me to take up Accountancy!

Who says Karaoke doesn't have its place in the WorldWideWeb? It's one of those things that you thought was a big joke until you realize the cold seriousness. Yes, we are talking about the online karaoke which takes the merry tradition of singing in the cyber realm. Why not? Well for me, it's a bit "awkward" ( not the right term to describe it), I prefer the old way, with the big sound box? I don't even know what to call it *laughs* Excuse my ignorance. Silly me. My sister argued "what difference would it make?" ughhh. I beg to disagree. This may be considered another triumph for those who shunned the world of karaoke just because they don't want their cracking voice be heard by passers by unless of course they'll record and share the song for everyone to see and hear. We are indeed living in a diasporic age where technology is changing the spectrum of our everyday life. Forgive me for my cynicism. Anyway, here's the link  http://www.risingstars.ph/. This new interactive platform is actually Filipino-owned, so might expect a massive list of OPM songs for your convenience . Hope you'll enjoy singing like my sister does!

I am supposed to make a new blog entry today but I end up sleeping the whole afternoon after babysitting my brother bembee earlier today. I am really at my wit's end babysitting him. He played angry birds and buddy rush  all day long, and I couldn't convince him play in the backyard instead like what most of the kids in the neighborhood do. If there's anyone I know who can stand his eyes fixed on the computer screen all day it has to be him. It would take a miracle to stop him gaming so  I rested my case .

Here's a cute picture of him making faces at me when I tried to chastise him about it.