The way I am feeling right now is one of those thousand moments I feel sorely confused and lost. But I've never been this confuse...Tuesday, February 05, 2013
The way I am feeling right now is one of those thousand moments I feel sorely confused and lost. But I've never been this confused in my entire 22 years. I feel like I am stuck in a gutter losing sight of my ambitions and purpose in life. I have this horrid feeling that I am no difference to the dead. Physical death will make no difference. I am nobody worth their attention. I hate life. Life's UNFAIR. Why does it have to be so hard for me??!
So I have been doing a lot of thinking the past three months of being idle and useless. I am confounded by choices but the simple task of choosing which one seems to be a very difficult task for me. Even If I could some of these days, I don't know where and when is the best way to start . I am at this point in my life where I don't know what to do with my far-from-perfect-life.
Hahaha! Found this draft I wrote last week.XD Reading those few lines above makes me realize that I am suffering last week from some kind of mild psychotic breakdown that runs in the family. Allhamdullilah, I prolly think I have recovered over the worst of it now :)